Who knew that I would love middle age? Seriously. The hell?
How come I didn’t know this was waiting for me? I think it would have been nice if someone had told me that each of us has our best season and mine is gonna be in the second half of my life.
It’s no secret that I am not one of those who loved the teenage years or my 20s (full disclosure: Sex In the City has exactly zero bearing on my life experience), my 30s? I believe I was in a coma – my 40s I began to wake up and voila – here I am!
And damn if my days don’t have a comfort and ease that I have never known before.
Wisdom is not a sexy word. It’s not something Taylor Swift is gonna sing about (at least not for another 30 years), but I can tell you wisdom is where it’s at.
The slower I go, the more I see, feel and experience — that’s how I drop right into a sensation of abundance that just blows my mind.
And this is one of the reasons I have not been in this space in recent months. Who wants to hear from an old lady? Are we not the disenfranchised? Are we not boring, dull, past our last f**kable day and therefore best to have a sheet pulled over our heads?
No doubt. But here’s the best part I don’t fucking care.
That’s the BEST part of getting old. I don’t care at all. And it’s not an angry or aggressive or defensive not caring – it’s a big smile, rolls of dolphin laughter your opinion is lovely and it doesn’t matter to me at all – not caring.
Dare I say wisdom = freedom?
And freedom is all I have ever wanted. Ever.
Below is an excerpt from The Stillmeadow Road and I have shared it a few times recently in classes and gatherings as it sums up precisely where I am at: an island of tranquility. Not because life has suddenly decided to get all calm and sweet and easy on my ass. No, life is her same wild crazy self as she has ever been but right in the heart of the storm is a quiet place. And that’s where you’ll find me.
– Awakening Shakti, Sally Kempton
Although it is now the third day of November, my intention is to write each of the remaining days of the month as I did this once before and it was really fun.