Turms out I didn’t hit the road yesterday morning.
Which is all fine, except I feel so bad for disappointing my sister– am a Thanksgiving tease, apparently– and I really will miss that soft pretzel.
The weirdest part is how hard it is for me to switch gears, allow plans to change and simply flow with it. Like, really hard. My rising sign is Pisces which is water – fish- flow and ease. And yet, I’m still working on developing that approach to life. This little hiccup is such a clear example for me.
I am watching myself and all the contortions (soft pretzel anyone?) I go through in resistance to what is.
What happened was that yesterday morning I woke up and my body was not going to be happy in the driver’s seat of a car for the 10 hour round trip as I popped something in my lower back (probably from all the running I have been doing). I made the right choice to stay home. And, I am super happy to be home.
And yet, there was all this forward momentum– all my thoughts and plans that were already way ahead of me, hanging with my family, being in Philadelphia, etc. It’s taking a bit to simply let go and be HERE now.
Does this ever happen to you?
One of the hanging elements that I have to close out and take in another direction is that I had started a playlist for the drive. It’s what I’m listening to as I type to you. Turns out, it’s good for the road and for blogging.
Link is here if you want to take a listen, too: First HOUR of my playlist.
Oh, and I totally didn’t blog yesterday. Glad you didn’t notice. Maybe I’ll double it up sometime this weekend. Maybe not.
Mostly I am looking forward to taking it easy. Sinking into books. Dabble at some house projects I never seem to get around to.
Tomorrow will see an impromptu Thanksgiving gathering here. More on that as details come into view.
I do think what’s going on with me right now is to have NO PLANS.
Make no plans.
That seems to be my marching orders of late. It’s all part of the mist and mystery that I seem to be moving through. Sort of like I am cosmically blindfolded and the universe is trying to make me learn to use my intuition the way I currently use my other five senses.
Yes, I am having my Luke Skywalker moment where I finally learn to use the force, baby.
the forward momentum of thoughts and plans…i do that more than i would like. yes, i get that, know that.
wishing you a pain-free back and comfort in the new (no) plan these next few days.
thanks for the playlist (will check that out) and sending love…
“The weirdest part is how hard it is for me to switch gears, allow plans to change and simply flow with it. Like, really hard. ……This little hiccup is such a clear example for me.”
I have so much to say about this it gives me chills. Change, leaving home, taking first steps, not giving in to the ” mini agoraphobia” that closes in (why now at our age?) safety and comfort vs whats out there… this would be a long and deep discussion that if we mastered it we would all shout a collective HUZZAH!
YES! And it was my back that told me to slow down, too – when I fractured my coccyx a couple of weeks ago. I had to abandon my to do list – even (sob!) tickets I'd bought months ago! Somehow, in the intervening time this landed in my lap and now I pass it along to you: http://www.ignatianspirituality.com/8078/prayer-of-theilhard-de-chardin
WOW. I am printing out that prayer. it is perfect. Exactly what I need right now. I know this truth, but it is hard to remember, THANK you!!! xoox
you SO get it!!! thank you for sharing– and yes, coming together to share does allieviate struggles, doesn't it? XOX
feeling better already and THANK you for the love and support!! xoxo
OMG little you! Those photos are slaying me!
I truly believe that often times a physical set-back is our body's way of saying you need to rest, relax, slow down, take time and because you are not doing that, I will give you notice – a cold, a muscle spasm, broken bone, tooth ache (ugh), migraine, and so on. In thinking back now, I have far less colds and periods of muscle resistance since giving up out of the home work, letting go of an ultra tidy home and giving more to who I am and what I need. Enjoy your impromptu Thanksgiving it might just be the best.
i've just caught up on all your November posts — it's like hanging with you for the day 🙂 (counting down the days, my love) xxxxx
You were such a little cutie, I can see your spiritedness in the photos. I agree with Judith, I think the body wants you to take notice of something too. Yes set backs of plans are hard, but sometimes it opens up other opportunities that wouldn't have arisen otherwise. I think it's just another way of growing, letting go and finding positives, as always easier said than practiced.
Hope you had a lovely impromptu thanksgiving xoxo
Happy Thanksgiving!
You are counted as one of my many blessings! I am so thankful that you write so I can read, and just so you know…you make me a better person because of it. I hope your back pain is gone and that your Thanksgiving was joyful. xoxoxxoo
heee heee— wish I could still rock that hair cut! xo
YES! and yes– and I am SOoooo sinking into this sweet long impromptu long weekend. 🙂
ohhh YAY!! and, me TOO—- so excited!!! xo
you have it so right! that's exactly how it goes and having the wisdom to roll with it feels so good! Sending you BIG love!!!
I just sent you the book club email— let me know if it doesn't reach you!! OXOXOXOX
Got it! Thanks! 🙂
Yes!! The photos are beautiful and cute. All that powerful spirit we see in a little girl, you've had it all along.