It wasn’t until 5:20 this morning that I realized I never posted yesterday . ..
You would think I might be more upset about this– failure, and all that — and yet, it seems I no longer have the relationship to the concept of failure that I once did.
The best expression to describe how I am feeling in this moment is arriving in French.*
Which feels freaking amazing to me—- really, kind of utterly cool. I normally do get all wrapped around the axel when the t’s are not crossed the dots for the i’s have landed on the floor.
But not today — It really has no effect on me at all.
Did I want to post every single day in November? Yes.
Do I like setting myself a challenge and then completing it? I do.
Was the reason I failed to post due to an inability? Nope.
In the big picture, does it matter at all? Not a whit.
Yesterday was simply full to the brim — I got up at 5am and dropped into bed at 11 pm and never once thought about the internet.
Kinda grand, actually.
Camille and Aimee are here for the weekend. In and around eating, noshing, talking and lolling, we hit the farmer’s market, the beach, and a friend’s birthday bash. Oh, and of course there was some waning moon magic . . . sha-ZAM.
So– there it is.
Best of all? Having Oliver with us is a decidedly wonderful thing.
It is going to take a bit of time, but I can see on the horizon, joy and happy hearts back in the kingdom, once again.
bisous, e
*sorry about that, how f*cking annoying, I know, but sometimes French does serve me better
That leaf photo stunned me into silence.
I did miss you yesterday. Your posts are like a tonic for me that somehow settles my soul each day. That being said, I am so happy you had a day so full of living and what a lovely day it sounds to have been. And once again I will take away from your post another idea, to not let the concept of failure have the same hold on me as it always has. It seems I learn something from you each time I read your blog, Elizabeth, whether you realize there is a lesson in your words or not! Thank you so much for that. Much love to you on this very, very cold and blustery Sunday morning.
xxoo
Debbie
NoBloPoMo, no big deal. To discover your perception of failure has changed must have put a smile on your face.
Your day, yesterday, would have been a shame to miss.
Bridgemor
As long as it was not because of something I would need to worry about, the whole indifference thing? Perfect. I have missed and made up by posting twice…etc. But, in the end, it doesn't matter. What matters (to me) with this challenge is that I am showing up. I usually don't. When I am crazy busy (like right now…emphasis on crazy) I don't post. So this is stretching me. I am not trying to write well, or profound, or even okay. I am going for showing up. That is huge for me. And, it is SO fun to do it with YOU and LIZ and SAM and JEANNINE. So fun.
In other news, I am so glad that Oliver is the salve that you needed. Of course he is. Smooches to those pups…please! And a big hug to you…
i happen to love the french bits!
i've got a daily project going for myself this year. i slipped one day during the summer because…well, it was a full day. like you, i was able to be truly okay with it. it was refreshing to say the least.
because in the end…not a whit.
p.s. so glad joy and happy hearts are on the kingdom's horizons…
In the grand scheme of things (and in the small scheme of things), missing one day of posting doesn't matter. No one will die. It sounds like you had a wonderful day and it was meet and right not to even think about the Internet.
I'm so glad that Oliver is helping Daisy (and you?) recover. That is a very good thing, indeed.
xoxo ~~t.
love oliver's up-turned nose.
correct me if i'm wrong.:) Diane
Woman, I hear you roar!
I don't really speak French, though I did a little in shool many years ago.
I translate that phrase in my head as “I don't give a f***” … Would I be right?
At least when you skive off for a day, you come back with beautiful photographs for us.
So that's okay 😀
really? wow– that thrills me to my TOES !!!
oh Debbie!!! you make me feel SOOooooo good!! thank you (multiplied by a million) xoxo, e
you GOT it<---! the perception of failure has changed--- I have changed. Bring on the TRANSFORMATION, baby! xo, e
showing up is ALL we have to do! amen sister– xoxo, e
'not a whit' might be my new tagline .. . ha ha xo, e
it is indeed a VERY good thing– the BIG healing has begun!!!
oh Diane you are so RIGHT– that is his nose!! xo,e
hee hee– do I have to learn that Katy Perry song now?
it does mean that except there is NO “energy” with it– you genuinely have no emotion about the situation– when I say I don't give a f*ck– for me, that has a little heat with it, you know? and THANK you for the photo props– I am so eager to get back into it and after the big launch next week I hope to have more photo time .. . *fingers crossed*
Oh my . . . didn't even know of that song. I was leaning more so with Helen Reddy 'I Am Woman' . . . a bit old fashioned I am. (!) Remember these posts have given great joy to all of us no matter how many or how consistent.
I LOVE me some Helen Reddy– here I was thinking you were one of the young and wild readers and I was trying to stay all hip .. .hahahahaah